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23andMe; The True Meaning of Family
I had seen ads many times on my Facebook feed from 23andme, and I have wanted to do it for a long time. The kits offer ancestry breakdown and personalized health insights which have always intrigued me. After all, from the depths of my core, I believe nothing is more important than family.
My desire to know more might be hard for someone to understand, looking from the outside. My god, some people on the inside don’t understand either. They might ask, “How can someone who professes to love her family be estranged from so many of her family members?” From my perspective, I lost my dad, my mother, my sister, and my brother due to alcoholism even though some of them are still alive.
My mom and dad married just before I was born in 1968. After having my brother and my sister, they divorced when I was eight or nine, due to my father’s problem with alcohol. My brother, Brett, my greatest friend, became another alcoholic branch on our family tree and lost his long courageous battle with addiction and mental illness when he was 39.
I had a relationship with my parents and sister until well into my thirties. Not a perfect one, as relationships within the walls of families can be challenging, but a life that included them. I loved them all very much. Even so, our immediate family unit dissolved under the stresses of my brother’s addiction as well as many unhealthy family patterns and blame-shifting. It all became too much.
My brother alone is responsible for his alcoholism; our reaction to it was never his responsibility. For many reasons, including my wellbeing and that of my husband and my two young sons, I made the painful decision to love my father, mother, and sister from afar. I ceased all contact more than ten years ago.
Through years of therapy, I worked extremely hard to be healthy and happy. I had spent too many decades making poor decisions and looking after other people. Finally, I found the courage to look after the needs of my own family first—my husband and sons. And I am most proud to say that I finally looked after myself; I responded to my own needs. That wasn’t and isn’t selfish. For my own mental health it was necessary.
I have always known my dad’s side of the family came from England, as we are all very close, but my excitement and hope in ordering the 23andme kits was to learn a little more about my mother’s side of the family. Growing up I only ever met my mom’s parents, her sister, and that sister’s children, my two cousins. I never met, nor did my mother ever mention, any of her aunts, uncles, cousins, or even grandparents.
My husband of 30 years, Jim, agreed that it would be amazing to learn more about where our families originated. He knows his family came from England too, whereas I was excited with the possibility of knowing where my mother’s parents came from. I had been close to them, as were my brother and sister, but we lost our grandparents when we were still young. My nana died from dementia complications when I was only 18, and my papa died when I was around 25 or 26. I feel blessed that Papa got to meet and spend time with his two great-grandchildren, Rick and Ryan, before he passed away.
Last November my husband and I opened our kits, filled the little tubes with saliva, and sent them off in the mail. I waited. And waited. And waited some more. I was so eager to get the results, like a kid waiting patiently to open a Christmas present, and I was disappointed when they didn’t update the information on my online portal as quickly as they had originally promised. Finally, the results arrived on January 15, 2022. I was a little sad as the data seemed a little vague. It confirmed that my relatives came from England, yet there wasn’t much other information. I was looking to know more about my nana and papa, maybe something more exotic, but I suppose that is where their families originated too.
So, after looking it over and analyzing my health data I logged out of my 23andme portal and I doubt I ever would have thought more about it or logged in again.
I was at work just a few weeks later, on February 7, when my phone beeped with an email that had a 23andme logo: “Hey Jodee, My name’s James Dodds and 23andme says that we may be half siblings. My dad, Jim Dodds, was from Ponoka so I am wondering if that’s the connection.”
I was completely calm as I read and responded within ten minutes to this unexpected news. I know everyone is different, but for me I have experienced firsthand how my body and mind reacts when being in shock. After all, I remember clearly when two police officers came to my front door in the middle of the night to tell me my brother had taken his own life. When I shared it with my husband that evening and with my two adult sons, now 29 and 31, they didn’t quite comprehend what it could mean. I knew instantly, not because I could have ever imagined such a thing or that there was a hint of some deep dark family secret, because there wasn’t. I live now, as I did as a young child with my parents, very close to Ponoka, Alberta. This wasn’t someone emailing me from halfway across the world, this was 20 minutes away. DNA doesn’t lie.
The initial shock had worn off by that evening. Random visions started going through my mind, causing floods of tears. My fully clothed dad saving me from drowning when I walked off the edge of a pier during a summer vacation when I was probably five years old. My grandma’s face—it sits in a beautiful frame in my office. Big Tisdale Christmas get-togethers with everyone from my dad’s side of the family at my house. My earliest memory of looking inside eggs with a red light with my grandfather when I was three or four. Being the oldest grandchild. Memories and tears. More memories and tears. And finally, my dad’s siblings—Uncle Les, Auntie Myrna, and Auntie Mary—all of whom have stood by me and supported me through my life’s journey. Never, not once, judging or condemning me or taking sides when it came to my complicated relationship with my father. They have loved me unconditionally, while loving their brother too. I LOVE my family.
Along with the tears came the overwhelming sense of disbelief and pain. My heart has been shattered.
My whole life flashed before my eyes. I knew my mother was pregnant when she got married to my father and since the whole marriage wasn’t blissful, we never talked about any other details after they divorced. As I tried to unwrap all my feelings, not knowing whether my mother lied or took her best guess and married my dad, I had no feeling of rage when I texted her: “I would like to know please your connection (and/or relationship with a Jim Dodds). I don’t need a long story. I don’t need contact with you. Just a simple one or two sentence answer. I would appreciate if you could get back to me within a day as this is time sensitive. Thank you.”
I am aware that this would come to her as much of a shock after 53 years as it did to me. But our estrangement complicated matters and her shock isn’t my responsibility. So, once again, I waited. And waited. And waited some more. It seemed like days, but in fact it was the next morning when I received a reply from my mother: “The only Jim Dodds I ever knew, I dated someone with that name when I was 18.”
I was already sure it was true. He is my biological father.
I don’t think anyone would ever blame me if my initial reaction would be hating my mother. You don’t have to be estranged for that. I think to myself even in the closest of families, this surprise revelation could ruin a mother and daughter relationship and cause tremendous upset. I am as imperfect as anyone, but I never react based on hate or anger. I am not even capable of feeling those emotions.
Life is full of twists, turns, losses, happiness, and hardships. I have lived through my fair share of pain, and this is no different. Pain is not a contest. We all experience it, and there are many different reactions. Sadly, often it is human nature when something bad or traumatic happens to be furious or to want to hold someone else responsible. We blame ourselves, we blame others, sometimes people blame god, but following those emotions will only keep us angry, unhealthy, and stuck in the same place. Instead, I always have a deep-seated hope for everyone, regardless of circumstance, to find the strength to follow empathy, compassion, understanding and love because that path leads to peace. Being all of those things never means that you have to accept relationships that are not good for your own health, happiness, and spirit but I never make important life’s decisions based on toxic emotions.
And so, in following with my head and also my heart, I met with my mother, the first time I have seen her face in nine years.
I don’t know the future of the relationship between me and my mom or if there will even be one. Before our visit, a lot of damage had been done that I am unsure can be reversed but I am putting all of that aside for today. As I share this revelation, I stand beside my mother as I believe her when she says there was no ill intent. She had been dating a bull rider, Jim Dodds, and loved him. But she was so young and had already experienced trauma of her own and had a past with my father. They had a daughter together four years before I was born, in 1964, who was given up for adoption. That connection was why my mom started seeing my dad again. And when she got pregnant at 19, she broke things off with Jim, and told him she was getting married without ever mentioning her pregnancy. With her whole heart she believed my dad was my biological father.
I have cried a million tears the last couple weeks, had many sleepless nights, and swam hundreds of lengths at the pool downtown in Sylvan Lake to calm my mind. And what I realized is that family is so much more than being related by blood. It is about being there for each other, through the good times, and especially the bad. It is the relationships in our lives that provide a sense of security and belonging. It is people that hold your heart gently in their hands. It is about feeling you are in a safe space, never worried someone won’t love you, no matter what you share. Family is about feeling valued, respected, and understood. It is about bumps in the road yet creating memories that are built on pure, unconditional love. Family is being able to say you are sorry when someone says you hurt them.
I am incredibly blessed to have so many relationships in my life that provide all these things and more, many of whom are friends that I wholeheartedly consider my family. We live in a beautiful world, where children continue to be adopted, people get divorced and then remarried with blended families, foster parents, surrogacy, and IVF sometimes with anonymous donors. Even same sex couples are fulfilling their dreams of becoming parents. There are many scenarios, and all of those people are no less loved, no less connected and no less family than those that share DNA. I always knew this; it just took a few days to catch my breath.
As much as my dad and I had our own challenges throughout the course of our lives, I loved him very much. This is not a win for me. I never, not once, wished for or longed for a different father. He passed away in February 2018. As much as our own conflicts and estrangement, I think this would have broken his heart.
I am still continuing to process, and my biggest source of pain and disbelief right now, is that my biological father Jim passed away on February 18, 2021, just over a year ago from cancer. He will never know that I was born. We will never get the opportunity to meet and he will never know his amazing grandsons.
There is no regret from me or desire to change the course of any of our lives, because, had my mom, my dad, or Jim Dodds known, the alternative would be worse than what we are all faced to accept today. Any other decision would change the course of so many different lives. Others quite likely would never have been born, such as my newly discovered half-siblings Jaime, James, and Jade as well as the brother I lost ten years ago. So as hard as it is to work through all of my emotions, things worked out as they should.
For me, I would never want to alter the course of fate. I love my family and was always meant to be the sister of Brett Tisdale
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NFL And CFL Betting 101: Why You Shouldn’t Bet With Your Emotions
Betting on the NFL and CFL can add an extra layer of excitement to the games, enhancing the
experience for many fans. However, successful sports betting requires discipline and strategy rather than just a passionate love for the game. Emotions, whether high or low, can cloud judgment and lead to impulsive, often regrettable decisions. This guide highlights why detaching from emotions when betting on football is crucial, offering practical strategies to keep your bets rational and strategic.
The Dangers of Emotional Betting
Betting with emotions, or betting impulsively based on personal bias or loyalty, can create a skewed perception of the game. It’s common for fans to overestimate their favorite team’s performance or assume a player’s history will guarantee a particular outcome. These assumptions lead to what’s known as “confirmation bias”, where fans see only the information that supports their beliefs and ignore contradictory data. This can cause bettors to overlook crucial insights, like injury reports or statistics, leading to inaccurate wagers.
Emotional betting also fuels what’s called “chasing losses”. This occurs when bettors, frustrated by previous losses, place increasingly risky football bets in an attempt to win back money. This approach is rarely successful and can quickly turn manageable losses into significant setbacks. By staying rational and informed, you can avoid these pitfalls and make more calculated, objective bets.
Strategies to Minimize Emotional Influence
One of the best ways to avoid emotional betting is to establish clear betting strategies based on data and analysis. Here are a few tactics to keep in mind:
1. Analyze Data, Not Personal Feelings: Before placing a bet, review all available data, including team statistics, recent performance trends, and injury reports. A data-driven approach helps eliminate bias, allowing you to focus on concrete factors that influence game outcomes rather than relying on loyalty or gut feelings.
2. Limit Bets on Favorite Teams or Players: It’s easy to let personal favorites dictate betting choices, but this often leads to poorly reasoned bets. Try to limit the amount of money you wager on teams or players you’re emotionally attached to. Alternatively, look for opportunities to bet on neutral games where personal feelings won’t interfere.
3. Track and Review Betting Patterns: Keep a record of your bets, including the reasoning behind each one and the outcome. Over time, you may notice patterns, such as betting more on favorite teams or overinvesting after a loss. Recognizing these tendencies can help you adjust future strategies to stay more objective.
4. Take Breaks When Needed: If you find yourself betting impulsively or “chasing” after a loss, it might be wise to take a break. Giving yourself time away from betting can clear your mind, allowing you to return with a fresh, objective perspective.
Understanding the Value of Objective Analysis
In sports betting, value is found in assessing odds and comparing them to actual probabilities. Odds reflect a combination of factors, from team performance to public perception, and even individual player stats. For instance, player-specific metrics like Aaron Rodgers player odds may offer valuable insights, especially when factoring in performance trends, injuries, or recent games. Analyzing these detailed odds alongside overall game stats helps bettors avoid the common pitfall of placing hopeful, emotional bets that may lack real value.
When emotion enters the equation, it’s easy to overlook true value, focusing on high-stakes or biased bets instead. By paying attention to player odds and using objective analysis, you’ll be better positioned to spot value where odds align with the likelihood of outcomes, improving returns and reducing the risks tied to emotional decision-making.
The Long-Term Benefits of Rational Betting
Sticking to rational, well-reasoned betting strategies not only improves your chances of success but also makes betting a more enjoyable and sustainable activity. Betting without emotional influence helps you stay in control, reducing stress and frustration associated with losses. Furthermore, disciplined betting habits help build a foundation for long-term profitability, transforming betting from an emotional rollercoaster into a calculated, engaging pursuit.
In conclusion, betting on the NFL or CFL can be thrilling, but it requires an approach grounded in data, strategy, and self-control. By setting aside emotions, analyzing information, and adopting a disciplined mindset, you’ll be better equipped to make informed choices and avoid the pitfalls of impulsive betting.
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Popular Casino Games at 1Red
1Red Casino has quickly emerged as one of the best casino betting platforms available for betting enthusiasts in Canada. Players can find tons of casino games available to place bets on this platform and secure winnings. They will be able to start playing the games within a few minutes with the help of the simple and user-friendly interface of the betting platform. However, new users may also find it challenging to choose any casino game and start placing bets as the number of games available on this site is massive. Players can check out the list of popular games at 1Red Casino below.
Slots
Slot games are the centre of attraction for casino betting enthusiasts at 1Red, as they will be able to find an extensive range of slot games available at this site. This includes slot games from several popular developers around the world, such as NetEnt, Pragmatic Play, Evolution Gaming, Micro Gaming, Play’N Go, and many others. Players will be able to enjoy playing across the classic slot games and even the modern titles, with the opportunity to grab impressive winnings. Also, they will be able to place bets over the progressive jackpot games and secure massive winnings.
Table Games at 1Red
At 1Red, even the classic casino enthusiasts will be able to find the popular table games available for them to place bets and secure winnings. They will be able to use the skills and strategies to place bets at the popular table games on the site, which are as follows:
- Baccarat: Players will be going against the dealer to place bets on which hand will have the card values closer to 9.
- Blackjack: It is also similar to Baccarat, as players go against the dealer with the main objective of getting their card values close to 21 and not exceeding the same to secure winnings.
- Roulette: In this game, a wheel is spun in every round, and players can place bets on the numbers or colors to grab winnings.
- Poker: Players can test their strategy by playing the Poker game, going against the other fellow players with the best card combination decided as the winner.
Live Dealer Games at 1Red
1Red casino betting platform also allows users to play the Live dealer games, where they can join the live streams of the games and start placing bets with the availability of real-time dealers and other players at the same table. These games will have professional dealers who will be providing them with a real-time gambling experience. It even allows users to communicate with each other at the same time, through which they can increase interaction and even learn more strategies. The casino games that players will be able to play in the live casino section include Baccarat, Blackjack, Roulette, Poker, and various others, with their variations.
Specialty Games
The specialty games at 1Red are also gaining a lot of popularity among betting enthusiasts in Canada. These games are useful for those bettors who want to place bets on casino games that are based on luck. They will be able to find various games, such as Keno, Bingo, and Scratch cards, where they can start playing with small amounts and even get a chance to secure massive winnings. Along with that, these games can be played quickly by the bettors, which will help them reveal their winnings within a few minutes and gear up for the upcoming round of the game.
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